Sit in contemplation of things to come. A call, a memory and an expression of love in the form of grief. You are my sunshine but I’m not yours. That was Aaron whom I ask to come for you when you are no longer breathing. I tell you “ Marilynn you’ve taken me on one helluva ride 100% “ No longer in the drivers seat you are now my captive audience but I chose to follow your lead. The map of denial initially with glimpses of acceptance still lies on the other side of the page.

I love that you said the dash between your birth and death is your life. The obituary reads the same. I immerse my self in movies like Starman and Ordinary People as I watch you doze off then wake up saying you can’t breathe. I breathe deeply for the both of us . Heavy sighs that fill the air with sadness like no other because you are my longest primary relationship. What now? I begin to understand how important it is to have glimpses of what used to be. Those grains of time as powerful as atoms and you were there for me and sometimes you had to do what was necessary to make it work. I understand all of who you are and some of the pain you felt. I must share you with those above, especially Aaron and Marlene . I love you forever